God is good there too. {On fear and my journey to Japan}

March 30, 2014

I gave the room one last look, afraid I was forgetting something. The book sat there on my desk, as it had for months.  I hesitated a moment–it was borrowed from a friend and I didn’t want anything to happen to it on my trip–but I knew what Christine would say: Take it! Read it! […]

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For whatever ocean you must cross today…

March 26, 2014

I held back the tears til I got in the car.  Tilted the rearview mirror so the kids couldn’t see. Turned up the worship music so they couldn’t hear. And quietly cried all the way home. Nothing tragic, just the ocean waves of overwhelming realization … Oh God, I don’t know what I’m doing. Oh […]

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To the Mountain Girls: Thanks.

March 24, 2014

These Mountain Girls, they blew me away. I shuffled in and sat at the back, somehow feeling insecure. I would have snuck out the back, but I was the speaker – I couldn’t leave! I began to regret agreeing to come. These girls had been to hell and back–how on earth could my tame testimony touch […]

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How spring – and change – come slow and suddenly…

March 21, 2014

“Ok, I love that starfish poem thing,” I started in on Jeff. He could tell a rant was coming. “And I agree–it’s worth it for one. It makes a difference for the one.  But what if it takes CRAZY agonizing effort just to get that ONE STINKING starfish back down the beach and into the water?? […]

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For the ache you may feel today…

March 19, 2014

She’s a little wobbly, so I take her hand in mine to help her balance. She smiles up at me. Her hair shimmers golden in the sun. Earlier she’d wanted to go outside. She’d found her coat and brought it to me, in the kitchen, standing at the stove stirring spaghetti sauce. “Can you help me?” […]

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A Weekend to Remember

March 17, 2014

It already felt like trudging through invisible mud, just to get there. Last fall I’d sat with a long-time friend, and was surprised when she mentioned it: A Weekend to Remember? It sounded like more  mushy marriage motivational mumbo jumbo. Was she really recommending a canned commercialized Christian couples’ retreat? Why yes, she was. Quite enthusiastically, in fact. […]

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The kind of questions Jesus loves…

March 14, 2014

At the end of this post, I invited any who have not put their faith in Christ to contact me so we could talk. Recently, one dear honest seeker sought out this conversation, and her questions and faith-struggles have reminded me of this: There are few things more refreshing to me than honest seekers. I think, […]

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Why it often feels impossible to pray

March 12, 2014

This post is late because I was praying. Doesn’t that sound super-spiritual?? Aren’t you impressed? Don’t be. Sometimes I feel like I’m the very worst spokesperson for about 99% of the things I teach. As you know I am a big advocate of eating well, and share often about The Plan. Yesterday, one of my […]

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On superstition, sin, and how to find stability this week…

March 10, 2014

‘When would you like to make your next appointment? We have Tuesday and Thursday available next week.” I smiled at the woman across the desk. She twitched nervously and ran her hands back and forth on the tops of her thighs, rocking back and forth. Her eyes darted around the room, trying to decide, trying […]

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Being still in a world that’s not

March 7, 2014

I could feel it creep up yesterday, that agitation. Agitation. I love that word. It so accurately portrays how I feel sometimes–like the washing machine churning back and forth, agitating those clothes into cleanliness. I love the word because it has negatively positive connotations (got that?). It describes a negative emotion, but when I remember my […]

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