When God says, Delete.
I was so frustrated.
I’d been obeying God, getting up early, trying to finish the book. That was the command and I was trying to follow through. Just one problem. He wasn’t telling me what to write! Everyday I would sit in front of my computer and wait. And wait and wait and wait. On Monday my dad came in to watch the kids. I sat in front of my computer for four hours straight without writing a word. I wanted to scream. I only have so much time to work on this, Lord! Do you understand?
Also please understand, I can’t write by myself. I cannot write anything worthwhile without God’s gracious Spirit. So it wasn’t as if I just needed to “try harder”… I was trying to obey and He wouldn’t tell me what to write! Also understand–for me, writing is like breathing. If I can’t write it feels like i’m choking. I write to think, write to process, write to hear from God.
So finally I tried to just pound out some sentences as best as I could. I didn’t like any of them, but I had to do something, right? I couldn’t just sit there and wait and wait and wait! There are things to do!
So I tried to just keep moving. And while it’s true that I did spend time just sitting and waiting, I began to just do my best trudging forward. I didn’t really like anything I wrote, but eventually at the end of the agonizing two weeks I had 5,000 words, almost an entire chapter completed.
Then Friday came. Jeff had the kids. I sneaked away to write. I got down on my face to pray, ask God for direction. And He gave it:
Delete it.
Excuse me? Delete what?
The chapter. The whole thing. Delete the whole thing and start over.
What?! It has taken me two agonizing weeks to choke out all those words! I have a big speaking engagement around the corner and two more chapters to write, Bible study to do, I don’t have time to start over!!
Delete it and start over.
I just laid there. I couldn’t believe it. Although, in a way I knew. This chapter is on Time, and what better way to learn about our sacred mundane use of time than to trust Him with it in this crazy way?
Ok, I’ll start over.
I deleted the old chapter, opened a new document. Would it take another two weeks to complete? Stared at the blank screen. Prayed.
By 4pm it was done.
The whole chapter. Completely re-written. He gave every single word in one gracious download. I even had time afterwards to make dinner for the Patterson-Seifers and join them as we sod-cut the ground for our family garden!
God holds our times. He is not limited by our time constraints. God can make something out of nothing. And when God says, Delete! we had better obey. He has something better to give us.
Also this week I had a God-ordained meeting with a dear girl in the middle of a struggle. It became clear as we talked that God was giving her a huge Delete! command in her own life. A life-changing Delete command. Would she do it? It was huge, would require major life adjustments. Would she obey?
She did. Haleljujah!
And later, as she followed through on the delete, God too blessed her with more than before.
His ways are not our ways. We think when we delete something we lose. But when God deletes something, we gain.
{Is there anything God is asking you to delete today? Trust Him and do it! Thanks for reading.}
Week's end with thanks
- Last mentor meeting. So grateful for these seven beautiful girls and for growing together.
- Old books.
- Like-minded friends.
- Sun-dried tomatoes.
- Plant starts poking up their tiny green heads.
- Breaking ground on the garden.
- Four kids bent low gathering up cut sod.
- Sunshine for just enough hours.
- Good tired.
- Finishing Chapter 9! God’s crazy-amazing faithfulness.
- Deleting.
- Starting over.
- Obeying.
- Candles glowing.
- Making more room at the table…
- His Words that never fail.
- Possibilities.
- Snuggling my girl, oh she is too sweet for words.
- Gathering them up. Time slow down!!
- Family snuggle.
- Dutch & Hannah running through the fields.
- Getting dirty.
- Nearly 70 people at Dad’s 70th birthday party! Wow! An amazing night, so grateful, so blessed.
- Smiles, hugs, laughter.
- Kids’ frosting faces.
- Looking forward.
- Full days, glad for them!
- God’s divine timing.
- A sister’s willingness to change.
- Not giving up.
- Clean.
- When things have a place.
- 25 lb.s of carrots.
- Juicer.
- Spicer Brothers.
- Raw honey.
- Apples, apples, and more apples.
- God’s abundance!
- WCC.
- Amazing Easter. Best ever. Come Lord Jesus!
- Overhearing Dutch preach to Heidi: “Heidi, when we are weak he is strong because He is God, the Rescuer. He teaches you how to live. You have to like Him! If you become a bad person, you will die. But you can go to heavenand be with Jesus forever! But Jesus is right here with us all the time, even though you can’t see him. He’s everywhere at the same time. Isn’t that amazing? He’s invisible so you can’t run into Him. See! (As he runs around the room) No matter where I go He’s still with me.” Amen, Dutch
- My children’s prayers. Oh Lord, capture their hearts!
Have a blessed weekend. Thanks for reading.
#42 Make a compost bin {52 bites}
I was a freshman in college when I first discovered garbage service and garbage disposals. I stood, mouth open in wonder, as the truck pulled up, dumped the bin, and drove away. They do that every week? I asked, amazed. I was even more amazed when I watched someone stick food scraps down the sink (Isn’t that going to clog?!!) then click a light-switch and watch as the sink roared to life, grinding and growling and gobbling up that garbage.
Yes, I’ll admit: I grew up in the sticks. We never had garbage service or a garbage disposal. How? you ask.
Well, we separated our trash just like the city folk, except we didn’t have tin/glass/plastic, ours was morel ike: Burnable, Non-burnable, and Slop bucket.
The burnable stuff, we burned. The non-burnable stuff … well, you know, I’m not sure what we did with it. Maybe I wasn’t supposed to know. But the slop-bucket, well that’s where you put all your food scraps, then you toss it all out into a pile of dirt to work into the ground and enrich your garden soil. There wasn’t a name for it, it’s just called dumping-the-slop-bucket.
But that sounds terribly hick-like, so now it’s called Composting and it’s wildly popular. (And I’m glad.)
So yes, we compost.
It’s easy now on our little 2.5 acre faux-farm, but even on our old postage-stamp lot we enjoyed composting as well. In fact, there we had the perfect set-up: Jeff built the composting bin right outside the kitchen window. I removed the screen. “Composting” involved opening the window and throwing food down the side of the house. LOVED THAT. I did that here but our kitchen window is not-quite-new and started breaking off the hinges. So now we have a little slop bucket and it’s our 5-year-old’s job to take it out to the compost bin each morning. LOVE THAT.
So, all this talk: Why compost? Obviously the main purpose is to get rich soil and better growing veggies. But honestly? Even if you don’t garden I still think composting is just a great way to get rid of garbage! You’ll end up with rich, dark, soil you can use for potted plants, flowerbeds, or a really awesome White Elephant gift next Christmas.
::How to make a compost bin::
We’ve done both of these kinds. Both have pros depending upon your digs and what you have on hand. Both are easy to make and inexpensive. (We never spent a dime on either one.)
1. Garbage-Can Bin (better for neighborhoods)
2. Wooden-Pallet Bin (great in the country)
If you’re gung ho and would like more information, I asked my friend Candi (From Candi’s 35 ways to save), who is my resident gardening-homesteading expert, to share her two cents on the subject. Happy Friday and thanks for reading, now go play in the dirt!
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::Composting with Candi::
Why compost?
The reason I compost is because I’ll do anything to be more frugal, organic, and more self sustainable. Composting saves on my garbage bill because I’m not throwing away hardly any yard debris (unless you have a weed patch), and I’m throwing a whole lot less food scraps in the trash. Composting saves me money when I garden because I use compost rather than buying, fertilizer or plant food and I don’t have to worry about my kids eating the ferilizer in the lawn. All the while I am relying less on the fuel burning, monthly bill of the trash man and I’m giving less money to all those crazy garden products, thus more self sustainable.
What makes up good compost?
You need a bit of everything, yard debris, food scraps, and “bedding.” Yard debris can be anything from your yard. You have to be weary of weeds or pesky plants you don’t want coming back. We had some crazy elm I didn’t want coming back in our last yard that I never put in the compost pile. Grass clippings, as long as they’re chemical free. Fallen leaves are awesome! Things that are hardier like sticks, twigs, and limbs will compost slower, but can still be used. Great yard debris ingredients is your garden when it stops producing fruit, just use all those dying plants as compost. We have had many volunteer plants grow out of the previous year’s compost. Such as a random tomato plant in the zucchini patch or a cucumber plant that comes up amongst the beets. Food scraps are the part of your compost that is really packed with nutrients. All fruit and vegetable scraps are great as well as egg shells (although, I’ve found egg shells compost slower). I’ve always been told to steer clear of animal products and oily things like cheeses etc. These items especially meat are more potent for pests such as raccoons to sniff out and wind up rummaging through your pile also animal products (like bones) tend to decompose much slower. I have heard good things about using chicken manure, but just as a rule would steer clear of all other types of manure as they can carry nasty diseases (ie. Ecoli). “Bedding” is primarily a term used in worm composting, but this is how I started and so I have grown a custom to adding some of it to my compost. Shredded newspapers and brown paper bags are best. I like what this does to control the moisture levels in your compost. I find that if your compost stays a bit moist (like a squeezed out sponge) it decomposes faster.
How long does it take to be usable soil?
Without worms compost can turn and be ready for use in my own experience once every six months to a year depending on your climate. Compost turns faster and is ready for use in warmer climates so long as it is kept moist. With the help of vermicompost worms or “red wrigglers” your compost can turn in half the time! We tried worm composting in a 32 gallon tub for a year. This was fun and especially interesting to watch those crazy worms multiply! We started with 50ish worms and in a year had well over 1,000! The gross part about this method was to get your ready compost out you had to sort through your old trash and worms. It was at this time that we were given a state of the art 3 level worm composter where the worms are supposed to eat the food on the bottom layer and work their way to the top so that once a month or so you would have an entire layer of worm free composted matter on the bottom of your composter. It didn’t work that way. This was great for separating done compost from not done compost, but we still had to sort out the worms. Just so you understand why this is so gross. Vermicompost is made when the worms eat your kitchen scraps and then poop it out. You are literally sorting through worm poop! To be honest sorting through worm poop didn’t really gross me out, I’m just lazy and grew tired of sorting out the worms. It can be a tedious task!
All this to say I find myself as a lazy composter. I still save just as much money, I think. My ideal vision of composting is to start a compost pile when you start your garden in spring, add to it and turn it all year round, and then each spring rototiller it into to your garden soil.
What do you use as a compost-container?
There a lot of fancy compost systems and containers that can cost you a lot of money. I prefer a large pile at the back of my property. We had a lot that was just 6000 sf (small sized city lot) and kept our compost in the back corner of our yard with no problems of smell or animals. The reason I have gone away from a fancy composter (after my fancy worm composter) is because I find we can produce a lot more compost materials than one of those expensive containers can hold. I also like to have a large garden (400 sq ft) and find one of these products, full doesn’t do a ton for my garden. One accompaniment to my large pile has been a kitchen bucket with a lid (the lid is necessary to avoid fruit flies) that I can add to daily. That way I only have to trek out to the far corner of the yard once a week or so. Even better is your kitchen window idea, where you can just pitch the compost straight outside!
All in all composting exists on many levels. From using worms to compost and using science to check the PH levels of your soil, or just pitching your scraps and yard debris in as I do. Or on an even smaller scale if you use a bag less lawnmower all those lawn clippings left out on the grass sink back down into the soil putting nutrients back into the soil; you’re composting too!
The gospel: See it again for the first time.
I remember about a year and a half ago I saw the movie Food, Inc. If you were part of our blog family back then you remember because I was talking about it. All. The. Time. And not only was I talking about it, I was making life changes as a result of it: Choosing local produce, supporting local farmers, trying to buy organic and free-trade, avoiding feed-lot beef. No one twisted my arm, I wanted to tell you about it and wanted to make changes in my life because of it. (And those changes and enthusiasm are still in effect 20 months later.)
We all naturally share what we’re excited about. We naturally make life-changes based on what we’re excited about. Based on what we love. Women especially are natural evangelists, right? We love to share. We share recipes and diet-secrets and parenting tips and blog posts. In fact, now in our social media age we have buttons and entire websites for this, right? They’re called “Share” buttons. It’s called Pinterest. We love to share so we create as many ways as possible to share what we love with each other.
Now here’s the thing: The gospel of Christ is the most amazingly glorious story that’s ever been told. It is the only story that encompasses all of mankind and stretches for all eternity. It is the greatest story of victory, or redemption, or heroism, of resolution. The gospel is the best thing going, the best news, the most exciting thing. It’s better than anything you find on Pinterest (not bashin’ just sayin’.)
So then why aren’t we talking about it?
Consider three reasons we’re not talking about the gospel, sharing the gospel, making life-changes because of the gospel.
Let’s say there was an amazing movie that came out and everyone was talking about it. The whole world was talking about it. And let’s say you were the one person who wasn’t talking about it. Why? I can think of 3 reasons why we wouldn’t be talking about it.
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We haven’t seen it: Maybe you’ve just never seen it. Never actually heard the gospel. Sadly, we can grow up in church and never hear the actual gospel message (This is what Matt Chandler’s new book, The Explicit Gospel, is all about). Or perhaps we’ve never seen the real thing, like going to the wrong house to view spectacular Christmas tree lights. You show up and see a puny lit-up Santa in the yard and aren’t that impressed. Because it wasn’t the real house. If the gospel you know doesn’t seem that glorious then it’s not the real gospel.
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We saw it a long time ago and forgot about it: Perhaps we’ve forgotten how good it really is, like seeing an amazing movie a long time ago and forgetting how good it was. That ever happened to you? Whenever I see Princess Bride I remember all over again how good it is. But if you haven’t heard or seen it in a while you forget. Perhaps we heard the gospel when we were saved twenty years ago, but have forgotten now how sweet it is.
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We didn’t understand it. Has this ever happened to you? Everyone’s talking about a movie and then you went and saw it and thought, “huh?” I don’t understand what all the hype is about? I think The Thin Red Line was like that. I don’t get it. And it’s possible that you’ve heard the gospel and it just hasn’t clicked. If we don’t understand sin, depravity, eternal darkness, redemption, grace, justification – then we won’t “get” how glorious it is.
So we need to see the gospel again. Today. And every day. Perhaps we need to see it for the first time and be changed by it. Perhaps we need to see it again and be reminded of how glorious it is and be changed. Or perhaps we need to finally get it and really understand how glorious the gospel of grace really is and be changed.
Whatever our need the solution is the same: The gospel.
See it again for the first time.
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Amazing grace, how sweet the sound, that saved a wretch like me,
I once was lost but now am found, was blind but now I see.
Thanks for reading.
*Recognize your need to get reacquainted with the life-changing gospel? Check out The Explicit Gospel, Matt’s Chandler’s new book.





